ehhh

1. slept late and went to the salon today. talked for awhile with the people there, but they are all kind of old, haha. well, too old for me to hang out with anyway. 
2. saw sex and the city 2 again (matinee) and got more out of it this time. i have the seasons to watch but forgot a vcr player and the first three seasons are all vcrs--so i'm screwed until my family comes to (kind of) visit. 
3. made dinner tonight and then went out to tcby and bought myself a parfait! great decision. thinking about going running tomorrow unless it's sunny and hot (aka pool weather).

i think tomorrow might be a legally blonde kind of day. i love that movie (!) for obvious reasons and need some inspiration. i am reading a book that is pretty depressing right now and want to get through it so that i can read some novels instead. i am starting to feel safer in the apartment but am still worried about being out and alone, so i try to keep my head on straight at all times. living in a city is a big adjustment for me, especially when i'm living alone! i don't have much to say, other than i am still waiting to adjust and still waiting to start work. that is next week, and my mentor seems pretty excited about it, which is good because i want to be busy busy busy! this summer  needs to be what i thought it would be...

simple as

1. went to the pool today. i think that everyone else knows how stupid it is to be outside around here during the summer. but it was nice for me! no one was there, though. 
2. went to the workout room too and it was lame-o! broken machines and no free weights. to get to use the rec center on campus, i'd have to pay $$$ if they even let me join (since i'm not a student). looks like it'll be DIY workouts this summer...
3. did some work on an abstract for a conference and made dinner and watched tlc. it was a nice friday evening, but i'd rather be hanging out with other people (like what was happening in other apartments i can see). 

so i have had a  few thoughts about myself and my life confirmed by this summer's experience so far. i love my college. i love my family. i love my friends. i am shy at first, but i like being with people. i am a scaredy cat. let me elaborate... the college where i go to school is my perfect fit; it's the right size and the right population and the right place for my career interests. i love the people i have met and can't wait to spend two more years meeting more wonderful people. on that note, i love my family. my family is my soul and i would not be me without every single member of my family. big, fun, loving, crazy. the best! my friends--i can't even say how much i love them! the best part is that we all get along and love to hang out and go out and love college. my home friends and my school friends have very special places in my heart and i am fiercely loyal to them (same goes for family). i am shy around people i don't know well. i have a hard time simply introducing myself to new people, especially when i'm alone and not with another friend or group of people. i would much prefer being approached than to do the approaching. i am afraid of a lot of things! i much prefer the daylight hours and being a young female in a city alone at night is kind of intimidating. but i am also smart and (mostly) rational so i can think about the situation logically. but i still sleep with the door to my mini-apartment locked at night! overall, these three days have been quite a learning experience so far--i'm just anxious to get started!

doing the damn thing

1. walked around campus today--it was so hot. like a whole new level of brain-stifling hotness. can't wait to deal with it all summer!
2. got my student id card, did some few remaining errands, and figured out the bus system (kind of). also went on mini-job search. 
3. saw sex and the city 2 tonight!!! all by myself and loved every minute of it (the clothes! the shoes! the hats! the men! the decor!)

so i have decided that i should just woman up and do this summer thing. yes, i am writing this as much as a declaration of commitment as a promise to myself as an attempt to prove that i can and will. i'm still nervous in this big apartment alone, but i am doing it. i miss my family and my friends and my boyfriend and my mountains but i am doing it. i have to do it. part of me is looking into the future with this summer. living on my own, doing what i love to do (hopefully in a cooler climate), and being me. i want to make friends here, though, and want to have things to do on the weekends and people to have over to my apartment. so that's my next step. it'll probably be the toughest one (secretly, i'm maybe, kinda, sorta, possibly shy around people i don't know) but that will be the ultimate test for me in this new place. p.s. i LOVE and WANT carrie's dress...

the best laid plans...

1. shew. big day. moved to my new summer location and it took a long time (8.5 hours) and i only had to stop for help twice (both times near the end because street names had changed).
2. being an adult is hard! i had to unpack my car by myself, move everything to the second floor, and then go to walmart for misc./groceries. note to self: check for shower curtain before going to the store and then realizing that you don't have one. 
3. i am kinda anxious being alone in this apartment all by myself--it's pretty creepy. i am sure i will get used to it, but for now, it's lonesome and strange.

i don't exactly know where to start tonight. i have crossed one item off my bucket list that i'm making for this year--living alone. so far (yes, i realize that it's just been one night, but first impressions are important!) i am not so sure that i am the kind of person who can live alone. i love solitude, yes, but i also like people. and half the fum of an apartment (own room is half--duh) is having friends who live with you! two problems: my apartment is empty, and i have no friends in this town. sooooo. riiiiiiight. ummmm. hopefully i'll meet people at the pool tomorrow. and i am going around the campus sometime this week/weekend to get a feel for things. it'll be very different, i'm sure, since it's summer. it's hard to believe that  my summer has actually started. the plans i freaked out in happiness/excitement about are finally about to happen and it's crazy! this year is flying by and i can't wait to see what else is in store. yes, i am still nervous (!) but i have faith that it will all turn out somehow, even if it's not the way i envisioned. 

"on the wing"

1. had a wonderful, yet bittersweet day. 
2. can't wait for tomorrow, but am nervous about driving. 
3. i love a starry sky. 

i don't have much to say tonight, other than au revoir. here's to (hopefully) a helluva summer!

risky business

1. had breakfast with one of my besties today. said goodbye and it was sad! but i can't wait for people to come visit meeee. 
2. did some errands and started to pack since i am leaving on wednesday. 
3. very excited/nervous and still need directions...working on that now. 

the bachelorette premiered tonight! the new girl, ali, gave up her job working for facebook, her apartment, and her life to go on the show and hopefully find love. touching, yes, but not the reason i am blogging tonight. her fear of leaving the conventional behind is what broke her off from jake, but she gave that up to find love (on a reality tv show that only produced two successful couples in 15 or so seasons...right...). anyway, ali is taking a risk and i admire that. i am taking a pretty big risk on wednesday, moving to a totally new city for an internship that i am not even sure will work out how i want, but i am feeling okay about it. really nervous but confident that i will do well. i feel blessed for the opportunity to learn about and test myself. i want to push to the limit and figure out some more stuff. this 20th year has been working out pretty well and i still have great hopes for 2010. it's almost halfway over and that's scary but to be expected. time marches on, and i just have to keep on keeping on. i'm excited and apprehensive all at the same time. like i said earlier today, "i guess this is 'growing up,' huh?"

disney classics.

1. went to church today and carried a banner in the service--happy pentecost!
2. laid out by the pool at this random hotel with some friends. it was a cloudless day and hot and so nice--part of me is excited for the summer weather i will get to deal with!
3. have been fighting a lethargy most of the day--feel really physically tired and have a pounding headache.

sooooo i have been listening to the disney classics cds for the past several days now. don't judge! they are great. but it is a nice segue to the topic for tonight. favorite disney movies! i took a fairy tales class my freshman year of college and learned a whole lot about fairy tales (disney movies included). one is particular that i always liked was the little mermaid. she was curious and i always liked that about her. while her choice in men was flawed (did prince eric even speak?), she was still a pretty good princess. her hair color was...well, i won't go there. but she was pretty and ursula was a hoot. the message is rather...twisted, but that is expected of any fairy tale. at least disney made its version happier than the hans christian anderson tale...that involved bleeding feet, pain like knives, and eternal flying about in the air. no love, no happy ending. sorry, kids. sleeping beauty is an old disney movie and i loved it as a girl. the fairies were my favorite part! going back and watching it, though, i see that there was not much conversation. just floating about, dancing, and dragon killing. all exciting elements, but how do you just fall in love without speaking? such a great message, disney. but she was blond and had blue eyes and a lovely pink dress (though the other fairy wanted blue). what's not to love about that combination?! on to the serious disney movie--mulan. based on a chinese legend, mulan tells the story of a badass girl who defies her father and country (byah!) and saves china (that's what's up) from the huns. that damned hun guy is so ugly and mean. but mulan and her tiny dragon ancestor (eddie murphy) save china with the help of a cricket and hot chinese soldier (how to they make cartoon characters attractive, and is that weird?). anyway, they are all great movies and i like the songs and the characters and the messages (mostly). but let's be real, i love all disney movies.

bucket list item: visit disney world again!