all Qs and no As

1. had a YaYa adventure today that was lots of fun! my grandmother turned 77 and it was quite a party. 
2. had a fun night with my boyfriend, my sister, and her boyfriend. hung out and ate a good dinner after that.
3. watched sherlock holmes for the first time and like it a lot! it was kind of slow in the beginning, but it greatly improved towards the end. 

i keep getting anxious about florida. i'm excited, but i wish i knew more of what to expect. and i wish i knew what was going to happen while in florida for 2.5 months. who i'm going to meet, what i'm going to be doing, where my apartment will be, when i'll get to see my friends/family/boyfriend, why the timing in my life is sometimes really off (or seems to be). i can never have the answers. i mean, what would life be if we knew all the answers already? isn't this blog url livlinglife2010? that means go with the flow and live life, experience life, see what happens and where life takes me. i have some ideas for blog posts but i also kind of want some ideas for things to write about. so if you have any particular thoughts, please comment!

sleepytime

1. volunteered this morning doing manual labor for three hours. it wasn't that bad but i had to shower and have small blisters on my hands. 
2. stared yann martel's new book (author of life of pi). it's pretty impressive so far.
3. got to spend part of my day with the boyfriend and really enjoyed myself. he met my two good girlfriends too, after we ate out at the place where i used to work.

i am really tired tonight (almost fell asleep twice while writing this post). okay, three times. i just need to go to sleep and hopefully have good dreams. speaking of dreams, i have a few good ideas for posts for the next few nights.

go, go gadget arm!

1. tried to bake chocolate almond biscotti today and didn't have enough sugar! what a let down. i'm considering making some bread in the morning. 
2. went to lunch with two of my best girl friends. it'd been awhile since we'd all been together! that is definitely one thing i am going to miss about this summer--seeing my friends from home whenever i want to.
3. i confess--i bought another swimsuit today. but! i got rid of three bathing suits, so that's something, right?! ...right? i also bought a cute dress that was on sale for $3 from $20. 

technology has changed this planet, time after time. the semantics of the term "technology" are a bit challenging, i admit, but i am meaning the general and accepted definition of technology. my mother just purchased the new ipad and she ordered and ipod a few days ago. it came in today and it was amazing how compact and beautiful a piece of technology can be. so much goes into that small device, and so much comes out of it. and while technology amazes me, it is also still severely lacking. why can't we stop the oil from pouring into the oceans? hey BP, why don't you tell me that, you sons-of-bitches? oh wait, you're saying it's halliburton's fault? halliburton, you claim that transocean ltd. is at fault? tsk tsk, no one will take responsibility. how is it that the technology that has the potential to change how the planet operates, to move us forward, is not being adopted and funded? the only answer i can come up with is lack of public support, combined with greed and laziness. people don't want to change and people like to complain and be negative--it gives us something to do with our lives. and a way to deal with the guilt. the execs of these companies and the people in power are greedy and want to cut corners and make as much money as possible. what is with this insane obsession to have more money? why have so few people in history actually been content with what is in front of them. i get the idea of wanting to better yourself, but these people are not doing good with their wealth. they are, like, ruining the environment? yes, that sounds right. and laziness, ahh sloth. *notice that both greed and sloth are two of the seven deadly sins* this goes back to being afraid of change. people are just too lazy to recycle and to turn off the lights and to drive a cleaner car and to look for better alternatives. our society is so centered on waste and want. forget the "not" part of that phrase--all we do is want and waste. it's unbelievable to me. how can people be unable or unwilling to look to the future when the earth is DESTROYED because of HUMAN ACTIONS? i don't understand it and will continue to try to do my best to do my part in this green revolution. i wish people would just get the f***ing wake-up call already. and don't get me started on the religious right who have no respect for this planet. what was God's word about protecting and tending to his creation? it seems as if that has been thrown out the window in the face of "more important" concerns. UGH.

tough stuff

1. went to the mall today and only bought one thing! tried on bathing suits and didn't find any i liked. that is probably best since i'm pretty sure i have 12 already...
2. made dinner tonight--it was pretty basic but it's still fun help out my mom sometimes and act like an adult. 
3. played a fun game tonight with a fun person. 

it hit me tonight that i am leaving very soon. like, in a week and a half soon. can i do this? am i strong enough to do this? i think so. i am tough (generally) and have a high pain tolerance (among others). i like adventure and i like to travel. let me clarify... i like adventures like getting lost in venice and catching subways in rome and driving a stick in barcelona and eating food i can't pronounce in paris.  i don't like adventures like getting lost in the dark streets of tallahassee alone on my way home from work, or going out to a bar or to dinner alone or having a really boring and pointless summer. that's what i am most afraid of, i think. that i will go down this summer and spend 2.5 months there and it won't be worth it--that it will be boring and monotonous and not a new and exciting experience for my career. that i will have wasted a summer i could have spent with family and with my boyfriend before he leaves me for a semester, and then i leave him for another semester. but i guess i won't know until i try! and then again, i am not tied into anything. if i am not happy, i can change my situation (within reason). but i'll be damned if i don't give it a helluva shot.

"have a cup of tea," indeed! well i'm sorry, but i just haven't the time!

1. had a pretty lazy day today. it was nice. but i did some more unpacking towards the end of my day and am almost finished!
2. had a delicious dinner (of course) and got to see my uncle. love the family. 
3. a chill night to match a chill day. i'm liking this summer so far...

Mad Hatter: Do you care for tea?
Alice: Why, yes. I'm very fond of tea.
March Hare: If you don't care for tea, you could at least make polite conversation!

oh, the tea party. i think they are crazy! i feel like tea partiers are crazy for at least one reason: sarah palin. anything she is associated with must be crazy like she is. oh wait, i'm distracted, i can see the communists in russia planning an attack on the us. hold on, hold on, oh wait! that's the grizzly bear i'm going to shoot on my next helicopter hunting trip. just kidding! or maybe that's the group of angry and vicious sarah palin haters coming for me at last! i think she should move to california and try and make "roots" there since she spends so much of her money on lip injections and face lifts. not to mention the wardrobe and hair styling! maybe her calling is in hollywood as a B movie actor? no, they have too much intelligence for her. while she may not be smart (really, how can she be? like...really.) she can play the game. hockey, i mean. isn't that her calling in life? i am just wondering how a hockey mom gets elected in alaska...or anywhere. it terrifies me to think about some of the psycho soccer moms i grew up around running in any sort of election and winning. but hey, first step booster club,  next step VP of the united states! okay, so enough on my sarah palin rant. the tea party. they are named after the tea party protest in boston before the revolutionary war, right? real cool, guys. the tea party only happened once. and i also get this strange sense that the british crown rule is not parallel to the government right now. but who knows! maybe the (sane) rest of the american public will be called tories and traitors and be tarred and feathered! how exciting. i get it--you hate taxes. cry me a river and don't drive on any road, okay? or eat and food you don't grow yourself, or buy anything, or support the economy that you hate so much that is directly tied into the government you hate. if you're gonna be a rebel, then do it, damn it. be like that couple in the northeast (maine, maybe?) that holed up in their fortress and stopped paying income taxes and bought ak-47s instead. take that, government! but really, i just feel like this movement is comprised of adults who are little bitches who can't take some hard times. just man up and leave sarah palin behind and leave the tea party. disclaimer: i am not really educated on this subject beyond the typical new stories and a wikipedia page.

wow

1. unpacked my car and put some more stuff in temporary storage, soon to be packed up again. can't wait to leave, but i know it'll be hard too. 
2. had a great date and good dinner. i like the movie we saw too, date night. it was pretty funny. 
3. went to a friend's 21st and had a great time! just hung out but it was nice seeing people i went to high school with and sharing memories.

it's hard for me to think right now. i'm tired and confused and just want to go to sleep. a lot is about to change in my life and it will be really interesting to see what happens. oh, and my grades for the semester came back--3.500. lowest gpa i've ever gotten but still made dean's list for my fourth consecutive semester. so i did well enough, i guess, but i'm still disappointed. i need to work harder next semester, but i am also hopefully going to life the classes in am registered for in the fall better than i liked my spring classes. anyway, i promise a more exciting post tomorrow night--today has just been kind of weird.

this one's for the mothers

1. went to church for the first time in a long time. it was nice, but i still don't really feel like it's where i need to be figuring out my religious questions.
2. had a wonderful mother's day brunch with my family and my grandparents. mom loved her present and card (aforementioned crafting of last night).
3. i watched national treasure: book of secrets tonight and precious. the national treasure i'd seen before but it's fun to watch movies about conspiracy theories. precious was a great movie--really powerful.

that's a good intro to a post about moms. precious' mom was crazy-horrible. she was mean and hateful and abusive and disgusting. but she was a product of her environment. her childhood was terrible, i'm sure, and her husband was a pedophile and her sole livelihood. that is not the only explanation though. she was lazy and jealous and mean and worthless. and her actions (and inactions) cannot be excused. but precious never had a mother--she had a monster. but the best thing about mother's day for me is that it makes me thankful for the wonderful mother i have. she and my father raised my sister and me to be people who they are both proud of, and i'm proud of us too. i am just very thankful to have the mother i do and have the childhood that i did. so thank you, mom, and thanks to all mothers.
list item: plant flowers outside my apartment.