"say what you mean to say"

1. great day! i spent it with someone special.
2. went to a delicious dinner (again). is it becoming clear that my life revolves around food?
3. i cleaned my room! up next on the chore list: laundry.

let me preface this by saying that the family nickname for dr. freud is "dr. fraud." i fully support this nickname--freud is 90% bull, 5% lucky, 5% correct. so with that said, one of the things he was right about is the infamous "freudian slip," or, "parapraxis." it is also known as the "oh, shit" moment. it's when you are trying to say something and instead say something different. freud interpreted these moments as glimpses into the unconscious desires of the person who made the freudian slip. while sometimes mistakes of speech happen, most of the time, the thing that is said on accident is what the person is actually thinking about. and while it may not have been conscious thought, it was happening somewhere under the surface of the cognitive activity. i'm a fan of saying what i mean and being upfront and telling the truth. but tonight, my unconscious told the truth. it was rather embarrassing and weird, but funny at the same time. and while i may not have actively thought about what slipped from my mouth, it definitely made sense and fit the context. moral of the story: tell the truth, because if you don't, your unconscious will tell it anyway.

bucket list: have a garden of flowers