wondering why

1. arrived back at school, safe and sound. still have yet to unpack...
2. watched my two favorite schools win in basketball!
3. still have yet to buy my books also...but it's okay since my first class in on tuesday!

I am left wondering why every time something bad happens. this is not an uncommon reaction, I know, but it's something I have always wanted to address. why, why, why do bad things happen to good people? I mentioned in yesterday's post that tonight's post would relate to magic. in this aspect, it relates to the lack of magic when magic is most necessary. why does a young man get cancer that stops the progression of his life, cuts off his future, and ultimately ends his life? why does a father and husband suddenly pass away from an undiagnosed condition? the questions never end. every time I see a news story or hear an account of something bad that has happened to a good person or family, I get upset. it all seems so useless, so heartless, so unfair! and I'm aware that this post may sound like a whiny, immature child who doesn't understand that life isn't fair. but when people say "life isn't fair," do they ever stop to think about how unfair that statement is? like, sure your life is going well, so you can say that it isn't fair for other people; but in your down moment, is that really what you want to hear? it's such an insensitive response. I don't do well with insensitivity. and I don't do well with others' pain (see previous post). but really, why does life suck so much sometimes? blunt, I know, but true. it's just....unreal how much bad stuff happens. and so much isn't under any type of control that humans have. it's just frustrating. and sometimes when I want magic the most, it isn't there.

my second goal is to save a life.